“It’s not our abilities that make us who we are, but rather, our choices.” that is a quote from Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets movie. The original quote from the book goes, “It is our choices, Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.” These quotes are inspirational and thought-provoking to me.
The Harry Potter saga, created by J.K. Rowling, is nothing short of a miraculous mythos, the product of great imagination and love for her children expressed beautifully and with great care. Without great imagination, fostered by a meaningful life experience and an unhindered freedom of expression, the book could never have been written. Without the talent, discipline, and the ability of the writer to start and finish a project, the book could never have been written. I believe that without love, the love the writer had for her children, the book could never have been written. Though I am a huge fan of the Harry Potter mythos, I am really a bigger fan of the love and the beauty of the expression of that love.
The mythos I choose for myself, and aspire to live by, is the Holy Bible. The quote that mirrors the inspirational quote from the Potter book goes, “Thus saith the LORD, Let not the wise man glory in his wisdom, neither let the mighty man glory in his might, let not the rich man glory in his riches: 9:24 But let him that glorieth glory in this, that he understandeth and knoweth me, that I am the LORD which exercise lovingkindness, judgment, and righteousness, in the earth: for in these things I delight, saith the LORD.” The Holy Bible has God, and that, rather than magic is what I need to help me make better choices.
I want love to lead me and guide me and comfort me and provide for me. It’s about good triumphing over evil. It’s about the solution triumphing over the problem. I want to be a part of the solution. I want to be a part of the love. Have I made choices that bring me closer to that goal, or have I let my abilities take me away from it?
I need Love, and God, who had the imagination, the words to say, and the love for us children, spoke the words and created a whole world for us out of darkness. Regardless of anything that may have happened since that day, today, I get to love and be loved and witness the beauty and love of others, even those, and perhaps, especially those that don’t rigidly adhere to the same or similar beliefs as my own. The human talent that can be found to inspire is amazing. The beauty of human expression can be the most comforting salve for a troubled soul. But the love, like the divine love for a child by a parent that is not afraid of what that child might do with it, is awesome. It is the love of God that sustains me and now I wonder if the choices I have made in my life show what I truly am.
I kinda have to wonder that because even though I have chosen the way of love, I have struggled quite a bit. In my experience, I have seen a whole lot of love expressed in inappropriate ways. I have seen, masquerading as love, physical abuse, by parents directed at their kids, by husbands directed at their wives, by lovers directed at their loved ones. I have seen, masquerading as love, sarcasm, snide remarks, yelling, and all manner of verbal abuse, coercions, and manipulation. I have, myself, abused the people I love the most and treated with greater kindness the clerk at the gas station, putting their feelings on a higher plateau than those of a loved one with a plan to do something that does not fit my schedule or my expectations of them. I have stood, rooted in place, unable to let love take me out of my routine, my comfort zone, and watched a loved one leave me there alone. I have seen and participated in so many inappropriate expressions of love and so many crimes against love that I have to wonder if the choices I have made are bringing me closer to love or pushing it farther away.
While I know it when I see it, Love has been an astonishingly difficult thing to master or control, and divine love, that super amazing kind of love that transcends, has been mostly over my head. Hate, on the other hand, when its not merely an expression of pain that one cannot get over, is surprisingly, the easiest way of dealing with anything one does not understand. I have done a pretty fair job of choosing love merely by choosing not to hate. In fact, since hate is such a demanding resource hog, I have found great value, in time and resources, in not doing a thing, as opposed to doing a thing that while it may be the easiest thing in the world to do, costs so much. Love, which requires a fair amount of listening and not talking; another thing to not do, utilizes for its successful consummation, the sharing of resources between individuals and when successfully executed, generates wonderful results that usually extend far beyond the scope of the casual observer, hence there can be little control or mastery over the results.
I said to God long ago, “God, love is a thing I have pretty much given up on for myself, but I still want to know more about it. So here’s the deal, how about you show me how to love others and then maybe I could hold it, for a time, before passing it on to someone else and maybe, while I’m holding it, I can learn a thing or two about it.” Since that time, I have had some love to give and while I was holding it, I have stolen glimpses of it and I have learned a thing or two about it. One thing I have learned is that it can’t be molded into something it is not, nor can it be redefined or altered in any way.
I didn’t choose the way of love first. Like many people, it was just easier to let whatever I was good at take me wherever it wanted me to go, and I chose to let my abilities define me. For a while, I was a pretty fair liar and a thief, but then my life got too complicated and there were severe limitations imposed on me. I became a pretty fair student, but then life got too complicated and limitations were imposed, thwarting any further academic achievements. I was never any kind of a ladies man, a charmer, or an athlete, and a severe lack of funds kept me from being much of a consumer. It was while I was slowly becoming a self-taught computer expert that I became intrigued with God and, ultimately, the way of love. I’m not talking about single-parent love, free love, love of country, or family, animals or fellow man. I’m talking about divine Love, love that gives with no thought of reward or reciprocation, love that heals, love that creates, love that transcends.
Love simply fails to accomplish transcendence when it is tempered or controlled. Though actions may be based on love, any attempt I have made to control the way it is expressed or the outcome of its expression has led to a great deal of frustration and, in many cases, a heart wrenching loss of love. And though I have learned a great deal about love from these experiences, I feel terrible about the way I have treated the people I love and I wish, for myself and those others, that things had went differently, especially when I think of the opportunities that I have missed out on because I tried to limit or control how love was going to be expressed.
Frustration is inevitably the result of trying to limit or control love. The frustration that I have caused others and experienced myself as a result of someone else, or myself thinking a thing or two about love are many. Whenever I have tried to control love, or rigidly stood by what I believe is the best way to express my love, I have lost the ones I love, and some of them, I have lost permanently. The frustrations, confusion, and just plain undesirable results that I have had concerning love, leads me to believe that one cannot just have love, that one needs to understand what love is if they are looking for that special, transcendent, divine love.